Slowing Down

Slowing Down | The Urban Pig

Lately, I have been proving myself wrong in many ways, mostly in the sense of my personality differing from what I have always described it as. I have always been a planner, and I still am in some ways, like with long-term goals. But this year seems to be a time of quick decision making, such as moving back from Denver, moving into a rental home (photos from around the house), starting my own business, and more. It’s been a lot of excitement, but at the same time it has left me in a state of mind where I feel like I have no idea what I am doing. I haven’t had the much needed time to digest each decision and really take in what is happening. It’s been kind of a scary thing for me! Luckily, everything is working out fine so far; my mind just needs to take some time to catch up with what my body is doing. I know how important it is to enjoy the journey of life events such as these and I really want to have that appreciation for the present time in which I am living.

After coming to this realization, I have definitely been able to clear some of the doubts in my mind. Those doubts like, “should I really follow through with this business thing?” (only because our income was a bit less than we wanted it to be to save for a house, then I realized it was definitely worth it), or “maybe we should just buy a house rather than build…” (again, I realized it will be worth it!). These doubts tend to creep up when I am exhausted and stressed like I had been the last few weeks. Once I had a tiny bit of time to sit and think and discuss them with Connor, we realized anything worth doing is not going to come easy, or quickly for that matter. So I decided not only is it time to slow down and give myself the opportunity to fight my fears rather than trying to suppress them, it is also time to slow down and see how far we have come and be okay with the fact that some things just take time! I am working hard mentally to change that timeline in my head that says I need to start building a house this year and have a fantastic business at the same time. Of course it is dreamy to think about, but really not practical in reality. All we can do is work toward those goals and in time, they will be achieved.

Slowing Down | The Urban Pig

Slowing Down | The Urban Pig

In the meantime, there is always so much to be thankful for, we just need to soak it in and count our blessings, even the small ones. There will be a time to stress about the happenings in life, and it is easy to get caught up in trying to keep up with everyone around you. But remember to take a deep breath every once in a while, focus on yourself and do the best you can.

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Spirit in the Sky

Spirit in the Sky | The Urban Pig

Sometimes we choose to hide our feelings away rather than pick up the pen and express them. And sometimes, you can’t keep pushing those feelings out because they just keep re-emerging until you acknowledge them. It is sort of funny how it happened…

While soaring through the clouds in the airplane on the way to Vegas last week, I couldn’t help but feel the presence of an old friend who passed away just over a year ago. I started to think about it and realized his spirit always seems to keep me company when I am near the sky.

He was often with me when I lived in Colorado. I always felt his presence as I looked to the most beautiful mountains on my daily drive. He kept me company during my commute but sometimes made me cry.

When we moved back to Spokane, I stopped feeling his presence. It was like we went back to normal elevations and I wasn’t close enough to the mountains in the sky to feel him any longer.

But then, I took this flight, and his spirit decided to visit me again. And out of the airplane window, all I could see was the mountains.

At one point in my life, he was my best friend. And at one point in Connor’s life, he was his best friend. And then, he introduced us. I owe him all of the happiness he has given us and I hope he knows how thankful I am to have known him. I will never forget his smile, laugh, and jokester positive attitude despite his health which he struggled with his entire life. He had big dreams for a teen who knew there was only a short time to achieve them and he lived every day like there WAS a tomorrow for him. It was this kind of example that he set and why so many called him a friend. I miss him very much and I think about him every day.

Mountains

Mountains | The Urban Pig

Past musings about the mountains in Colorado, with photos from this last weekend’s trip to Silver Mountain…

“As I drove to work this morning, earlier than usual, I noticed the mountains looked different. The sun hadn’t come up just yet, but the sky was bright enough to see the outline of the mountains far in the distance. Below them sat a city; night was still upon them. Their lights, twinkling and glittering all different colors. Few had already awaken to see the mountain majesties in all its glory.

I realized, each night as I return home, the mountains disappear behind me. I forget of their existence. And each morning I awake, I have still not remembered them until I turn the street corner in my car, where suddenly, they stand before me. Each morning, I realize I have missed their presence. Each morning, I revel in their beauty. Each morning, they look more beautiful than the last. A change to their color, their shape and carvings, their highlights and shadows; each morning it’s different. I long to get closer to them.

But if I was closer, they wouldn’t look the same. I may not even see them if I was so close as to be within them. The grass is not always greener. So here I sit, in the distance of the mountains, admiring their beauty from afar.”

Mountains | The Urban Pig

Mountains | The Urban Pig

Final Thoughts: Takeaways On Europe

Final Thoughts: Takeaways on Europe | The Urban Pig

There are always things to be learned from travel. It is eye-opening to see other countries, learn about their history, people, and food, and look at how they are similar or different from our own. Experiencing other cultures is always an adventure. There are usually things that I think, “why don’t we have this?” and other times I find things that I just couldn’t live with. Everyone is different and so much is based on our personal lives and experiences, how we grew up, what we are familiar with, and what we might find too unfamiliar or uncomfortable. On that note, I wanted to share my personal list of things I loved in Europe, as well as things I didn’t love so much.

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