Lately, I have been proving myself wrong in many ways, mostly in the sense of my personality differing from what I have always described it as. I have always been a planner, and I still am in some ways, like with long-term goals. But this year seems to be a time of quick decision making, such as moving back from Denver, moving into a rental home (photos from around the house), starting my own business, and more. It’s been a lot of excitement, but at the same time it has left me in a state of mind where I feel like I have no idea what I am doing. I haven’t had the much needed time to digest each decision and really take in what is happening. It’s been kind of a scary thing for me! Luckily, everything is working out fine so far; my mind just needs to take some time to catch up with what my body is doing. I know how important it is to enjoy the journey of life events such as these and I really want to have that appreciation for the present time in which I am living.
After coming to this realization, I have definitely been able to clear some of the doubts in my mind. Those doubts like, “should I really follow through with this business thing?” (only because our income was a bit less than we wanted it to be to save for a house, then I realized it was definitely worth it), or “maybe we should just buy a house rather than build…” (again, I realized it will be worth it!). These doubts tend to creep up when I am exhausted and stressed like I had been the last few weeks. Once I had a tiny bit of time to sit and think and discuss them with Connor, we realized anything worth doing is not going to come easy, or quickly for that matter. So I decided not only is it time to slow down and give myself the opportunity to fight my fears rather than trying to suppress them, it is also time to slow down and see how far we have come and be okay with the fact that some things just take time! I am working hard mentally to change that timeline in my head that says I need to start building a house this year and have a fantastic business at the same time. Of course it is dreamy to think about, but really not practical in reality. All we can do is work toward those goals and in time, they will be achieved.
In the meantime, there is always so much to be thankful for, we just need to soak it in and count our blessings, even the small ones. There will be a time to stress about the happenings in life, and it is easy to get caught up in trying to keep up with everyone around you. But remember to take a deep breath every once in a while, focus on yourself and do the best you can.
Posted by Shaleesa Mize on 10/22/2014
I cannot begin to explain how excited I am to have my hometown traditions back, including one of my all-time favorites for Autumn…Green Bluff farms! Maybe you remember last year’s search for a pumpkin patch while living in Denver. It didn’t go so well, and I was left without a pumpkin or caramel apple and really without any kind of experience at all. Since moving back, I have been looking forward to this day to revisit my favorite farms on the bluff, Siemer’s and Harvest House. How I missed the expansive rolling hills that look out to the mountains and over the valleys, the live music and people-watching, the sweet smells of warm pumpkin donuts and caramel apples. Autumn never feels complete without a trip to Green Bluff with out family. In fact, I feel like our family photos taken there each year show our growth the best from little kids to adults.
Soon we will be carving our pumpkins and this year we will be trying to use the pumpkin seeds to bake and eat as a snack! It seems crazy that we have never tried that, but it will be a new and fun experience to actually use all of those pumpkin guts. :)
Posted by Shaleesa Mize on 10/15/2014
It has been a busy last few weeks between my usual work while at the same time, branding and creating the Little Pacific Design Studio. Although a slow process, it has been fun to see my dreams become a reality simply by using photography, typography, colors, and graphics. These things don’t happen overnight, but I am excited to be taking the first step of starting my own design business.
In the past, I feel like I have underestimated myself, and while I still can’t say I am fully confident to do this on my own, I also know that I really am capable to accomplish whatever I set my mind to. I know that passion can pull me through the tough times and along the way I will learn and experience new things. But most importantly, I am excited for the adventures this will bring. I am excited to meet new people, design amazing spaces, and have the flexibility to do whatever my creative little soul feels like doing. Bring it on!
Anyway, check out the Little Pacific Design Studio’s website, although it is fairly limited right now while I get my first projects going. If you have any interest or need any design work, I would love for you to contact me!
Posted by Shaleesa Mize on 10/01/2014
Sometimes we choose to hide our feelings away rather than pick up the pen and express them. And sometimes, you can’t keep pushing those feelings out because they just keep re-emerging until you acknowledge them. It is sort of funny how it happened…
While soaring through the clouds in the airplane on the way to Vegas last week, I couldn’t help but feel the presence of an old friend who passed away just over a year ago. I started to think about it and realized his spirit always seems to keep me company when I am near the sky.
He was often with me when I lived in Colorado. I always felt his presence as I looked to the most beautiful mountains on my daily drive. He kept me company during my commute but sometimes made me cry.
When we moved back to Spokane, I stopped feeling his presence. It was like we went back to normal elevations and I wasn’t close enough to the mountains in the sky to feel him any longer.
But then, I took this flight, and his spirit decided to visit me again. And out of the airplane window, all I could see was the mountains.
At one point in my life, he was my best friend. And at one point in Connor’s life, he was his best friend. And then, he introduced us. I owe him all of the happiness he has given us and I hope he knows how thankful I am to have known him. I will never forget his smile, laugh, and jokester positive attitude despite his health which he struggled with his entire life. He had big dreams for a teen who knew there was only a short time to achieve them and he lived every day like there WAS a tomorrow for him. It was this kind of example that he set and why so many called him a friend. I miss him very much and I think about him every day.
Posted by Shaleesa Mize on 09/24/2014
For Connor’s birthday, we celebrated in Las Vegas this last weekend. We had a ton of fun walking the strip (with blisters and aching bodies to prove it), shopping, people-watching, and even got to experience Fremont Street, Cirque du Soleil’s “O” and met Siegfried in his Secret Garden at the Mirage. It was hot, in the 90’s and 100’s the whole time, so I am definitely appreciating the slightly cooler weather back here at home. Here are some pictures of our trip:
Posted by Shaleesa Mize on 09/17/2014